How I Got Over An Ex And Found The GREATEST LOVE OF ALL!!

I did it! I was so in love. This relationship was toxic but I felt stuck. I felt that he was the only man in the world for me. I didn't want anyone else. I was horrible without him, but things just wasn't working out WITH him.

We ended up in jail together and this was the last straw. We were both done with the toxic bullsh*t. Something had to give. This hurt to the soul. I know how it feels to lose the lover that you have built your world around. It sucks! Those feelings just don't dis-a-phuckin-pear!! It is downright hurtful!! Where do you go from there? What do you do? How do you end those thoughts that are like salt being thrown on an open wound? Just kill me NOW!!

That is what I felt. I never want to think of him with anyone else being the happy that we just couldn't be. My thoughts were killing me with that whole scenario. What I had to do was change up those thoughts. I had to transition myself into a whole new energy.

It is not as hard as your MIND is telling you. You can do pretty

much anything...it is your mind that is phuckin you up, I assure you. I discovered so much about myself; not having to rebound in meaningless relationships, I got to MYSELF. This is the place most people try to avoid the most, because it leaves you with the most important person; the person that needs the change that you try to inflict on others.

I was there...just saying if he would have done this or if he would do that,

and if he was just this type of person and if he wouldn't have done this or said this. I did not have that control over him. He was my main focus and he should have been my least focus. I can only change ME! Being accountable is hard, I know...but the reality of it all is that your situation has to do with you and what YOU CHOSE not anyone else.

I healed because I began to accept responsibility for my own choices. I became accountable for me, the only person that I can be accountable for. Instead of what he could have done differently, what could I have done differently; even if it leads to making a better choice in who to give my energy to.

You have to be accountable. I can go on about how far accountability has broadened my path to myself...but I wrote a book instead. In, Love Of My Life the book, I detail the journey it took for me to heal and find the greatest love of all within me. You will forget about ol' What's His Name and focus on what matters the most. You will reach a level of happiness that ol' What's His Name won't be able to resist. He may even come back to you in better shape, but you have to be better to receive better.

You always mattered. You need to know that for yourself. I declare, No More Toxic Anything!